Ode to Brazil

I want to be in Brazil.
I want to smell the scent of Brazil.
I waaaant to dance along Brazilian shores.
I want Brazil, but I want you more.

Temptations

Time is often the scapegoat. I'm hear to refute this arguement. Time waits for no one. It's idiotic to presume it ever has. Time is fixed. There ain't nothing we can do about it. Because we know this, we cannot point the blame at it any longer.

People naturally send off these signals that are only attractive to certain people. When you are in the absence of your loved one, it's easy to blame time and distance. It's easy to say "Hey, he/she is not here, so I have an excuse to pick up on these signals." It's a helluva lot harder to dismiss temptation. Temptation is a muthafucka. See, temptation will allow you to use time and distance as a scapegoat. It's like a little deceiving devil sitting on your shoulder. Sometimes, there isn't an angel blocking the devil's presuasion.

That's when your mind and heart step in. If you think with your mind and heart, not your body and it's lust, you can denounce temptation. It is hard. It really is. But, it is a must. Don't jeopardize what you know you have for certain, for something that may only be a temprary infatuation or fixation. Lust is a drug. Lust is powerful. It can really get out of hand.

Girl

A poetic entity
So sure
So sweet
So everything

Complete
Complex
Compromising nothing

So sure of herself
So sweet to me
Everything and more

Completely content
Complex yet simple
Compromises nothing, for her values are fixed.

Verse/Poetry

I look at her and I think about how connected we are. I look at her and feel how attached to me she can be. At other times, I think about how distant our tides have become. I look at her and feel a void, a rift, a gap. But, her beauty, among all else, draws me back and back and back. Her beauty intrigues me, relieves me, it teases me. Then I remember: two worlds cannot always collide. Like spring and fall, too distant, too far. Sometimes I love her. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I resent her. At other times I dote...on her. Visions of me and her, and she and I, we and us...is a must! But, I trust--myself too much to fall for her false touch. She touched me and took it back. She teased me then pulled herself back...from me. You see? Her love was just temporary. It's off and on, and off again. It's sweet and distant, or just distantly sweet. You don't play with me, me, and me. You don't mess with me, me, and me. Because, I am too good. I am too fragile. I am too weak. I am meek. And, since it is I who shall inherit this earth in the end, you must mend...my broken feelings, so dealing without you isn't so damn bad.

first day

Today was the very first day of class, which also means that it was my first day as a college student. It was pretty exciting. I only had one class today.

Sociology seems really neat. I can't wait to learn more about society's impact on each individual. It's really interesting.

I have three classes tomorrow: Portuguese, Black Feminist Theory, and English. These = VERY COOL.

I hope I do well. I know I'll do well. I will try my hardest no matter what. Today, I didn't procrastinate. Today, I did my work, and I did it on time. YAY!

I'll be checking in later.

~D

Forgive Them Father, They Know Not What They Do

"Forgive Them Father" is a track off of Lauryn Hill's album, "Miseducation of Lauryn Hill".

I like it. Y'all should check it out.

Speaking of religion, I'm not sure to which religion I should subscribe. I believe in God and his son. But, I'd like to get into Buddhism. I think it'll be good for my soul, for my spirit.

A lot has been going on. I've been busy non-stop. It's good for me though. I'm not sure if it's great for my relationship, but it's only been a week and a few days since I've begun to acclimate. I know that'll take a little while. I miss my girlfriend more than she can fathom. It's hard being alone. I'm forced to be social. But, I do like it. It's not usually what I do. I'm glad I'm somewhat breaking out of my shell.

Sometimes I feel as if my past is drifting away, falling apart. But, new flowers are in bloom, promising a beautiful present and future.

I'll try to write as often as I can. Lord knows this is therapeutic.

;)

So, this is the first blog I have posted since I have been at Smith. I must say, I am having a grand ol' time. I really like the people I've met thus far. They are genuine, kind, smart, and just really cool.

I'll update more about this later :).

I have to register for my classes in approximately 16 minutes!