Heartbroken

The only way I can explain how I feel:
Heartbroken.

It goes like this:

Corners.
Pipe.
Ice.
Fight.
Door.
Gone.
You.

Me.
Love.
Come back.
Please.

The 2 Princesses

Why do I even fuss?
Because I love you so much.
And I believe in our fairytale.

WIMP

You make me out for a wimp
And, I feel like one.
Just a sucker.
A poor lonely sucker
who's trying to hold onto the one good thing in her life.
you.

Illusions

Why can't you pretend with me like you pretend with them?
I like when you're happy and when you are excited about life.
But, I rarely see that anymore.
I'm beginning to think you were lying when you said I make you happy.
If I make you happy, shouldn't I see your happiness.
Why do they get to see that you are happy
when I know that they don't make you happy.
Unless this has been just a lie. And maybe I'm the one
suffering from these illusions.
Maybe it's all inverted
and backwards
and I'm not the one.

Paranoia

I'd always wonder if you'd call me first.
I never let you.
I'm too afraid of rejection.
I'm too afraid that you won't call me first.
So, I text you first, and if that doesn't work
I call you first
To remind you that you said you'd call.
And you never call,
Because I called,
and it would be pointless for you to call when I put you on the line,
first.
I'd always wonder if you'd call me
first.
Maybe this time, I will wait.

Visions

It's a strange predicament when I see her in me.
It would've been a lovely sight to see, if
I still loved her.
But nowadays, I just gag, and taste the
bitter sour sweetness
that climbs up my innards and rests on my tongue.
It's a strange and rather nauseating predicament.

If you love me

Do you love me?
Because, I love you.
If you love me, why do you push me into the sea?
I'm already blue.
I'm already drowning.
If you love me.
If you love me.
Why can't you just call me.
Why can't you reach out to me.
Before
we
are forced to say
I'm sorry.