Illusions

Why can't you pretend with me like you pretend with them?
I like when you're happy and when you are excited about life.
But, I rarely see that anymore.
I'm beginning to think you were lying when you said I make you happy.
If I make you happy, shouldn't I see your happiness.
Why do they get to see that you are happy
when I know that they don't make you happy.
Unless this has been just a lie. And maybe I'm the one
suffering from these illusions.
Maybe it's all inverted
and backwards
and I'm not the one.